Random L.A. Pics....I Will Have More Posted/ Explained Soon

Monday Night Boredum.....

So plans fell through tonight.....I hate when that happens...I hate that I haven't been keeping up with my blog. Well I'm writing now when I should probably be writing routines for my client’s tomorrow morning but never mind.

Well what do I write about? I'm listening to city & colour so let’s write about music.

Funny how music plays such a huge part of people and their everyday life. I think one of the hardest questions you can ask someone is "So, what kind of music do you listen to?" I think a better question is "So, What’s kind of music don't you like?" I really believe that if you love "music" then you can listen to anything and enjoy it on a certain level. I myself listen to everything from The Beatles to Afroman, Frank Sinatra to Testito. I don't think you should be ashamed of liking music that isn't necessarily popular or enjoyed by most people. I'm pretty that how trends start.

Music seems to change people. Their attitude, the way they dress, their beliefs, they way they choose to live their life. Music is the ultimate media advertisement really, if you consider that most commercial come with a song, TV shows have a song (the OC song to name one), the radio, and clothing are aimed to provoke people to buy.

Music reminds of us the past, whether it was a song you listened to with your buddies from High School, an old girlfriend, a wedding, just a small moment in time when you happen to be listen to a song off your ipod, music is able to take you back to a point in time and your able to relive that experience again.

Music can give you strength and hope that something better will come around, or it will depress you and make you wish you weren’t alive anymore. It will get you motivated for something important, it will give you the courage to stand up to something and say FUCK OF! It can help us through the tough times or prolong the good ones. Music is a voice for all those can't express themselves through regular conversation or actions. To me it one of the only pure forms or individuality and freedom of expression.

If you have ever watched the movie "The Shawshank Redemption" Andy (played by Tim Robbins) gets locked in the "hole" for a week. The hole being this little cellar with no light and no time to go outside for a walk. When Andy is free he says it was the easiest time he has ever done because he had Mozart to listen to. At first his cell mates thought the warden let Andy take a record player with him but Andy replies that the music was in his head. Andy goes on to say that beauty of music is that no matter what they (they being the guards) take from him, his life, his belongings, that they could never take the music away from him because it was inside his head.

Californication

So everything is booked! The flight, camp site, hostel, and rental car...all thats left is to make an antennary as to what my friend Brandon and I will do while we are in L.A.

I can't wait for this trip! I mean I went to Germany on my own during last summer (well I went with a friend from England) anyway that trip was great but other then the flights there and back we didn't plan a fuckin thing! No hotels, no destinations, nothing! We basically just followed England which was fun in the end but when you first arrive in a country that first doesn't use english as thier primary language and second you dont have a clue where you are (oh and it was pooring rain our first day) then things can get alittle stressful. I will however really recommend a trip like that! As much as it was unorganized, it was still really exciting having to find places to sleep, eat and even figuring out the transit system just because you never really knew what was going to happen next. You meet people, find out information and eventually everything works out! ...well you hope.

So what to do in L.A.....I guess you have to see the Hollywood sign and the Walk of Fame. As much as it sounds corny I am still looking forward to being a tourist. I also plan on getting Jay Leno tickets which are free, going to Venice and Laguna beach! not to mention checking out Santa Monica! I dunno I really want to make each day worth while as we are only there for 6 days! So I guess an Antennary is in order!

So why am I going to California! Well Brandon and I are going to probably the biggest 3 day music festival in the world www.coachella.com We could only get tickets for Saterday meaning we get to see The Red Hot Chili Peppers! and Testito! So hopfully when Testito comes on I'll be high on drugs. That sounds sad but I think it would make for a great experince during all that crazy dance music!

Its funny but since I booked the tickets to Cali...I find I am picking out songs on the radio that have or are about California! It must be a great place! Long Beach WOOT WOOT....lol my sad atempt to use a Dr. Dre song as an example!

So I can see it now, all pimped put in my sexy accent (car) driving down the pacific coast, on my way to Mexico! which is also what I plan to do. I can't believe I've never been! but it should be a blast even if we can only go for a day!

I guess I should tell my mum soon....I'm kinda iffy to tell her because I'm always going on about how poor I am yet me and Brandon will have spent over 1000$ on this trip....Oh and we fly back on my birthday! May 1st! so I'm not sure how I'm gonna explain that...I guess I'll just tell my mum tomorrow.

Other then that I'm now the proud owner of a Master Card! with a 3500$ limit.......I'm not sure how I feel about this but in regards to my trip I'm glade I have it just incase I get in a tight spot. The one thing I've realized about credit cards and call me stupid but I've become so dependent on my Visa that I think that money is actually mine. Well I mean if I paid off my Visa and Visa called me to say that they are ending my lets say "membership" then what could I do? I mean its thier money that I have borrowed! I know this might sound silly to all your credit card pros but I've only had my Visa for less then a year so this money thing is still new to me HAHA.

Well finally I feel very professional because I soon will be receiving my very first piece of art work! One of my clients (Shannon) said I could have it because I was bugging him months ago for it! I think its cool and for me the painting represent a dark sad person or feeling but underneath all this pain and suffering is a heart that is egar to shin through. Shannon if your reading this don't laugh. Anyway here it is, its the one on the left and I stole this picture for Shannons Blog which is www.zentastic.com)

A Day In High Park!!

What a nice day! The sun is out and everyones seems happy to be outside!

Things have really been turning for me since moving to the High Park area! I also feel more alive and optimistic about things ahead!

I've been talking to one of the yoga instructors I train and she was talking to me about thinking positively and having a happy lookout towards life in general. By doing this she also said that good things will happen to you but if your negitive about things and also look to the down side first then bad luck will follow. Now I guess this depends on what you believe really. Do you believe in fate? Is everything already planned for us? or is it just dumb luck? whos knows...I believe that everything happends for a reason! There must be a reason why I know the people I do? There must be a reason why I got this place I live in because its just to good to be true. I mean its nothing specail or anything but compared to my other place it's great!

I cant stress this enough but I'm so happy to be living in High Park! I went for a walk today through the park. The air feels so clean and deeper you got into the park the more it feels like I dont live in a city which sometimes is a good feeling. I'm looking forward to riding my bike through the trails!

My roommates are great! Holly and Lauren! We all watched TV together lasted night and had a good laugh which was refreshing because thats something I never did at my old place with my old roommates! I didn't even care to tell them I was moving out this past Sat.

Well I've promised myself that I would starting writing my blog atleast 2-3 times a week. I enjoy it and even if no one reads it lol I dont care, it's a nice hobby and I like taking pictures.

Here are some I took at High Park.....

Where I live.

Can you guess?

Just hanging out by the Park.

Bloor St. West....I barely know you.

A New Chapter!

So I did it! I "landed" the High Park place I was wanting to rent!!! YA ME!

I was so stressy this past weekend because for me it was like a make or break weekend. Either I got the place I wanted (High Park) or I got my back up plan (Dundas and Bathurst). My back up plan would of been ok but the area sucked, plus when you compare it to having the master bedroom and own bathroom like my first choice does its hard not to feel down about moving to plan "B".

I was told I would find out sometime on the weekend as to the decision to whether or not I got the place at High Park. So saturday rolls around no call....Sunday rolls around and by 12 still no call. By this time I'm pretty moody because all I can think of is this place and how much better this place will make my life and by 2 pm I still hadn't gotten a call so I was starting to get the feeling I didn't get it.

You know how some people are like "OH, dont worry I'll you and let you know what my decision is" but they never call, giving you the sign that you didn't get it. Well I was getting that feeling but decided to say fuck it, I'll call them. It's funny how nervous I was, I was taking deep breaths and planning what I would say when Holly picked up the phone. This was one of those phone calls where you kinda hope no one answers so that the asnwer machine picks up. Well no one answered and I did get to leave a message.

Anyway, I finally got a call back around 5pm (So you can imagine by 5 pm on a sunday and you still haven't got a call, I was pretty stressed. Where am I gonna live? I dont wanna live at plan B, Should I live with friends for a month, what do I do with my stuff?) Holly started talking to me and asking how my St. Patricks day went and it was then that I knew I got the place because you dont make conversation with someone when you about to drop them bad news...or do you? I wouldn't.

So I can picture it now! Pinics at the park, long bike rides, playing soccer and tennis, swimming in the pool, going to nice resturants on Bloor West, walking to work, and just generally having more fun.

The best part about this place is the rent. Its only 470! I was shocked! I thought they were joking. I get my own ensuite bathroom, the largest room out of the 3, cable in my room, and just some other nice things like dishwasher, roommates my age (girls), storage space, a large closet, and well finally a place I can have people over to solcailize with! Which reminds me, I think I will be having a house warming party not this weekend but next!

Well I new chapter in my life begins! I hope that this one will be a good one!

Mr. Golden Sun!

Man what a crazy nice day outside! I would of worn shorts and a T on a day like this! well maybe not but it was pretty warm! I think people act different when spring starts to come...The laundrette was packed today??? I guess people want to get things done and take advantage of the nice weather. I have to admit I was in an outgoing mood today. I did my laundry, went grocery shopping, cleaned my house, sent out several emails, continued searching for places to live via internet and I dunno I feel so fresh and so clean!!

So let's start ranting!!

I know! How about the crazy amount of shit holes I've been seeing while looking for a place to live...I mean people will rent anything that has a few walls.

I believe that craigslist.com is probably the best and worst place to look for shared renting. On one hand its free which really helps because people save money and you get to see a great amount of places availible. Plus its updated every 15 minutes so you know how old an ad is unlike some renting websites.

The bad thing about it is you have no real idea if the place meets any type of standard in regards to safety/ living. Ya I guess you could say some ads have pictures posted but seriously its not hard to make something shit, look good.

A good example of this was this place I went to see this past weekend. The ad made it sound really good as it was a room for rent in a brand new town house. The pictures made the place out to be very modern and updated looking and it came with plenty of new appliances! So I went to the viewing time and by the way I really think that having a viewing time is dumb. I know, I know, it saves time but come on think of the people that are going to see the place. If its a great place there are going to be a few people waiting around and how wierd feeling is that. Like I'd have to stand beside someone that wants the place just as badly as I do. Deep down I would be thinking you cunt, your ugly and you dont need this place as bad as I do. Anyway. To sum this story up not only was the room for rent small but it wasnt even a fucking room. It was like a quater of a living room with no door, right infront of the bathroom? Oh it had a free standing divider to give you some privacy but you could still see directly into the room from the bathroom. Whats get me is how the lady made it sound so great and actually said "I'm only going to rent if for 500 because there's no door" What a greedy mother fucker, I can't believe she think its worth that. I just said thanks but its not what I'm looking for.....some people.

I think if you going to be renting a room out you should follow a few rules!

1) Clean the fucking place! I mean some of the places I saw with dirty dishes piling up and gross bathrooms were digusting...how serious can you be?

2) Be polite! I mean your trying to sell a room to someone!! One person I talked to were like "so you gonna take it or what cuz I'm pretty busy and need to get this shit over with" Ya thanks buddy??? I'll you when I turn crazy.

3) Be Honest! There's nothing worse then someone that lies through thier teeth. Dont talk about how great a place is when you yourself wouldn't want your own mother to live there!

4) The Cost of Rent-I know living in Toronto is expensive but think about how much your asking for? Word to the wise, always ask if the rent is negotiable! Plenty of times roommates will up the price of the room being rented so they can pay less...I mean if you can get away with it why not. There are so many over priced, shity places out there and sometimes I wonder if people really think they will really find someone dumb enough to say yes....but I guess they must.

Anyway, I'm waiting to hear back from the sweetest place across the street from High Park.
Its absoluty the greatest place for me. Rent is cheap, come with my own bathroom, I have the largest room, dish washer, internet, cable, its fairly new, and I dunno its just a pretty fucking sweet pad! So fingers crossed that I get this place because I'm starting to get a little stressed with all the crapy places I've seen lately!

A Man's Best Friend!

************ Dedicated to my dogs Jack & Ben*************

So Saira, a client of mine at the gym came into train with me tonight. She was a little bit late and I usually bug her about being late when I see her as a joke.

(Saira if your reading this I'm always joking about you being late, you always have a good reason but in all honesty if you were 20 mins late I wouldnt care and would probably train your 20 mins later if I could.)

So ya Saira came in upset and because she had a busy/ stressful day, so I kinda felt bad for bugging her for being late. I knew this already but it wasn;t 100% for sure what was going to happen but Saira's dog has cancer and she found out tonight before the gym that he wasn't going to beat it. She started crying at the gym and I really felt like and ass. I told her that she should go home and be with her dog and that I wouldnt charge her for the session, I mean if I did I would hope someone would call me an asshole. So Saira just remember what I said, be happy that you know your dog had such a good life and was lucky to have you as a mum because many dogs aren’t so lucky and I'm sure deep down Milo knows this and he love you for being there for him.

I love my dog Jack so much! he's defiantly one of my best friends. He's never been mean, angry, hurtful, ungrateful, disrespectful ever! He is always happy to see me no matter what time of day or what I've done wrong! He knows all my secrets and has never told anyone or judges me for them. All he asks is to be feed, walked, and loved and I think thats a pretty sweet deal considering all the things he gives me without saying a word. Dogs are there for you when you need a friend and I don’t care what anyone says but dogs know when you’re upset or happy.

Now you could say I'm being (for lack of a better word) retarded but I think you can't understand what I'm talking about untill you've had a pet you really love. Dogs become a family member. When they are sick you pay the vet to heal them because it hurts you knowing that they are in pain. If they were a son or a daughter you would do the same and feel the same. It just blows my mind when people can have dogs for several years and then just get ride of them because of work or moving. Now I agree that if they dont have enough time for the dog it isn't fair but shame on you for getting a dog in the first place and if the dog with a child could you do the same thing? I think it's cruel to give a dog away especially if its old...I mean your its family the only people in the world that they really know. Could you imagine if your family left you while growing up? It would be horrible and I couldn’t imagine the sadness/ loneliness/ confusion it would bring. So for every dog that gets mistreated or left behind I'd like to punch the past owners as hard as I could so they could feel only a quarter of the pain their pet would. Ok I know that sound corny but you get me.

Oh and I know I didn't mention Ben while talking about Jack but thats because Ben passed away a few years ago. We got him from Golden Retriever Rescue as my mum did some work for them. He was old when we got him, like 10 or something. He had come from a home that didn;t want him anymore because they were too busy with their kids. I mean what fucks...to have a dog till its 10 and give it away. Anyway, I truly believe that Ben was better off with us because it got a great life in return. Lots of toys, walks, food, and endless love. What a great dog to. He wasn;t scared of any dog no matter what size it was. He was our protector and we loved him for it. Jack is a total ditsy dog, I sometimes think he's gay because he is really emotional but I still love him. anyway.....

Well I'm sure I'll have a dog when I'm a bit older and alittle more financially stable. What kind i'm not sure but I do know and this is fact. Golden Retrievers are simply the best dog you can get. Better than any dogs named Tucker or Buckley..

Oh and if you love dogs I highly recommend www.cuteoverload.com not I know that doesn;t sound very manly but its a good site for animal lovers and I actually found it while on the beastie boys website so there!!!Acutally I didnt find it and ex gf did but still! (Oh click pupps on the right hand side thats the best one)

Long Time No See!

So I haven't wrote much for the last few weeks and I'm sorry because I know how my daily readers enjoy hearing me rant ;) I've just been busy I guess, it’s a stressful time for me I guess you could say....So as I eat my chicken noodle soup lets update everyone on the shit happening in me life! (this won’t be an exciting blog but I feel the need to write about stuff)

So I finally have a digital camera! Compliments of my great client Shannon! And hey lets use it now!

As you can see my photography skills still need a little work but no worries. It's an older camera but I'm ok with that, plus I'm only ever gonna use for this blog so I don’t think the quality of picture really matters but I guess I should ask Shannon how to work it properly. Oh and I bartered for the camera with Shannon for 2 training sessions which I think is a sweet deal because I enjoy training him so its a deal in my favour really. Thats one of the best things about being personal training, I've made endless connections via my clients. If I need computer work I know who to ask. I've got cheap guitar lessons through PT, I train a chef that said she would teach me how to cook anytime....I think i'll use that offer as a date with a girlfriend. Um what else... I know Garth scored Leafs tickets from a client, Brad got some money I think, OH and if you’re lucky you get a tattoo gift certificate haha! I really enjoy my job, even when I don’t feel like training someone I usually find myself talking to the client and laughing about something. I get along really well with all my clients and I really believe I have great social skills...when it comes to friends/clients that is....with girls I'm fucked...I say this because I train so many different people all with different lives, jobs, background, goals, and somehow I always find a way to become friends with them. I also help my clients outside of training. I got one a job with my gym as the main account. I brought all my clients gifts for xmas and I dunno I guess I haven't done anything to crazy for my clients but I would if the situation every arise.

Well my Tattoo is almost finished!!! YA!! 1200$ bucks later! I'm so proud of my tattoo I almost wish it was visible so others could see it! but then I have to remind myself that I got the tattoo for me....So for your visual pleasure here are the before and after pics!

Its cazy comparing the two. When I first got the outlining done I couldn't see how shading could make the tattoo looks better because I thought the tattoo looked great as is. Anyway I still have one last session to go to color in the canons and some small high lights around the helmet! Cant wait!

HERE'S A FUNNY STORY!

So of all days I decided to be smart and ride my bike to work and holly fuck was it cold! Like it was soo cold I decided to wear my ski goggles because my eyes were gonna water if i didn’t. So at 6 am I head off to work down college. So as I'm riding all I can think of is how fucking cold it is outside. I mean its fucking freezing. So I decide to be clever and try and push my chin under my scarf to try and cover my face. So here I am head down riding my bike down college when I see something in front me. As I lift my head I realize its a parked car! so all I can think of is " OH SHIT" I have no time to turn out of the way, all I can do it jump off my bike and hope for the best. Pictures this...I jump off my bike while hitting the back bumper of this car, still using my brain I am still holding on to the handles while jumping off my bike, I flip over my bike on to the trunk of the car...landing on my back, then the momentum of my body rolls me off the side of the car to land softly onto a rock hard, icy snow bank...I banged my knee in the process but to embarrassed to sit still I pick my ass up off the ground, look around to see if anyone saw, then book it up college. Great start to the day....my knee is killing me.

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Well on the plus side I learnt how to play "Heart of Gold" by Niel Young! I'm totally excited! I've actually created music! its crazy lol So what out Marc and Garth so i'll know one song and some chords...... :s One last pic

Well this wasnt my best blog but w.e. I plan on ranting on moving tomorrow and all the shity places i've been looking at so I'm sure that blog will be a bit more interesting. Back to work for me .......................

The Perfect Woman

God is there such a thing? I guess it depends on what your looking for.....your "Type". Either way I know I'm young and that I have years to find the right one but I guess I can't help but look.

Lately my luck with the opposite sex hasn't been the greatest. The funny thing is I can be friendly with any girl and get along with them great (Atleast that what I think, let me know if you think otherwise) and usually I tend to have more friends that are girls then guys. I'd argu that now seeing how I have been hanging out with Brad, Marc, and occasionally Garth (Garth snowboarding sunday?) more. So I dunno if I can be friends with girls why can't I find the right one to date? Maybe I'm being selfish/ picky? I dunno, I figure I dont need to get in a relationship just because, but on the other hand I'm not big on dating...I'd rather have a girlfriend instead. Someone to rely on and support, I find that more meaningful. I think Chris Rock said it best "Even if you find the perfect person it's not gonna be at the perfect time. Your single, they're married. Your straight, they're gay. Your a black women, his a black man.......". There always seems to be something in the way, attitudes, past relationships, distance, interests, religion, age......

My perfect woman would be.....the girl in the movie True Romance. (If you havent seen the movie and want to then I wouldnt read on as I'm basically going to tell the whole story in short)

Anyway, I know the title sounds like this movie would be all lovie dovie but it's the total opposite. The movie is about this woman (I'll give her the name Mary) that is sent to hang out with this man (She's a call girl) because he is a bit of a loner, nice guy but keeps to him self. He is in the middle of a movie theatre when Mary walks behind him and spills popcorn all over him (on purpose) to start a convosation. Anyway they get talking and at the end of night Mary confesses her love for him even though she was being paid the entire time just to have sex with him. I wish I remembered his name (so I'll call him Joe) but Joe loves her back, the only problem is Mary has a pimp and she cant quit because her pimp is a bad guy and has all her stuff (have I lost you yet?) Anyway He loves her so much that he decides to get her stuff and kill Mary's pimp while he's at it. When he gets back they find out that he grabbed the wrong bag and that they bag he grabed was loaded with cocaine. Ok I'll try to wrap this up. They decide to go to Miami to sell the coc to some big shot producer extremely cheap so they can live off the money and never work again. The cops find out whats happening and decide to wire one of thier friends to bust them during the drug deal. The cops bust in and have a gun fight with the big shot producers mafia. Joe gets shot while mary hides. Near the end of the fight Mary goes to Joe crying because she think he's dead when a cop goes to pull a gun on her, she grabs a gun and kills the cop. Joe wakes up from being unconsciouse, they escape the fight and steal the money from the producer to have a kid and live in peace. The good guys live and the bad guys die.

So what does this have to do with my perfect girl? Well The girl "Mary" loves "Joe" and believes in him. They have a cause and she will do everything she can to protect and support Joe. Even if it means killing someone. Now I dont want anyone to kill someone for me but I love the fact that she is there to protect her man and believes that in the end they will be living happily ever after. Even if Joe has done many wrongs to reach thier dream like killing her pimp, selling cocaine or whatever, she knows that he is doing it all for her. True Romance

I wish more woman were like that. Call me old fasfion but I like it when a woman looks up to her man as the provider/ the one that does the dirty work. Sometimes I think woman strive so much for equality between them and thier man that its causes fights. Now please girls take that with a grain of salt, I understand that it cant always be like that and that it isnt always the woman. I'm just trying to say that I feel like most relationships dont work because the couple dont try to work together to reach the ultimate goal (whatever that is), instead they work against eachother because of insecurities or selfishness.

Well thats my two cents......

Judge Judy....Aka Big Fuckin Bitch

One thing I absolutely hate watching on TV is court room drama shows. When I watch them I can’t believe people would actually degrade themselves by being on it. I understand that it's TV and there would need to be some drama on the show or else no one would watch but fuck it’s so unprofessional. The Judge isn’t a Judge they're a fucking bully. They make fun of people and put them down and sure some people deserve it but that shouldn’t matter.

Some of the hillbillies on these shows make me wonder if thy get paid to make up a story and appear on the show like on Jerry Springer??!?!? at least on Jerry you got to see some fake titties, the only thing you see in Judge Judy is her ugly old bitch face.

All the shows are the same...I mean how could they be different? The Scene: The Judge- Someone that doesn’t listen, good at making people feel shitty and almost impossible to talk to if they aren’t on your side. (Oh and if it’s a man vs. a women and your on Judge Judy your fucked. The women will always win no matter what drug habit or poor life style they have.) The Defendant- Someone that dresses like a cheese ball and is being sued for the dumbest thing and is so stubborn that they really believe they have a case. The plaintiff- A complete fucking idiot. They cant stop putting their hand up for the judges attention (this is usually followed by a bitchy comment from the judge like "put your hand down I don’t want to hear what you have to say" or if they don’t put their hand up and say something out of turn its "YOU ONLY SPEAK WHEN YOU ARE SPOKEN TO!" either way you cant win") and finally they act innocent which kind of pisses me off.

Anyway I've finally figure out that if I could fight any celeb right now like seriously beat the living shit out of them it would be Judge Judy! She is such a bitch! Seriously! If you can watch Judge Judy and not think she's the biggest asshole you’ve ever met then you don’t have a soul.

If I were ever on the show I would talk back to the bitch! I wouldn’t let her talk to me like I was nothing, fuck her! She doesn’t know me! And if she told me to zip it I'd go crazy. I’d climb over my desk, drop kick the guard, grab her fake old hair and slam her face into her desk and throw hay makers like there were no tomorrow.

Anyway here are two clips from youtube I found! The first one is my fav and personally this guy is my hero! I would do the same thing! The second is a Judge Judy one. Now I totally agree on this case the defendant is a totally fucking moron! But.......well just watch.

Happy 85th Grandad!

The picture above is of my granddad in WW2! He is in the front row in the very middle! Its funny cuz he had so much hair back then. I miss my granddad a lot! I really wish he were still here. Now that I’m mature enough I would love to ask him questions and get his advice about life. I really hope that when I'm and old man that I'm just like him. Happy Birthday Granddad!!!

The other night I had a dream about my mum dieing! It was such a real feeling dream to! Like, I was crying when I woke up! I can remember the feeling I had when I was crying in my dream, it was horrible and it actually felt real like my mum had actually died and I couldn’t tell myself that it was only a dream.

Dreams are weird things....what do they represent? They must have some sort of meaning! I'm not saying that just because my mum died in my dream that she will in real life at least I hope not! Now I haven’t done much research on dreaming but apparently we all have them even if we remember them or not.

I personally think dreams are pretty fucking crazy! I mean anything is possible and even if they don’t make any sense when you remember them for some reason when your dreaming everything makes perfect sense! I use you have dream when I was like 9 or 10 that I could fly! Like just jump up in the air and fly away! Man I wish I could have one of those dreams now. What about people that sleep walk? I mean that fucking crazy! The fact that when you wake up you don’t remember anything? I've only ever slept walked once in my life. I woke up and went into my mum’s room and told her I was going to turn off the light that doesn’t turn off. Anyway my mum told me later that the house got really cold and that when I was sleep walking I went into the basement and turned off the furriness? Oh and what about people who have night terrors!!! That’s scary if you ask me! To be asleep and screaming at the top of your lungs like you were scared for your life! What even more scary is having to be there trying to wake this person up! Which I heard that if someone is sleep walking or having night terrors your not suppose to wake them and to let them come out of it on there own!? Remember that movie the butterfly effect? I think I might go watch that again and if you've never seen it, watch it!

Anyway one last thing I want to bring up which is along the same line of dreams is this drug DMT (Dimethyltryptamine). DMT is a powerful psychoactive substance. If DMT is smoked, injected, or orally ingested with an MAOI, it can produce powerful entheogenic experiences including true hallucinations (perceived extensions of reality). (I cut and pasted that) Anyway I was talking to a client that has taken this drug before and he told me that you are basically put into another universe or dimension! Anyway this is really hard for me to explain so I found a really interesting youtube clip from Joe Rogan who does a really interesting explanation about the drug and how it works! If you got 5 mins listen to it and trust me you won’t be disappointed!

Moving Out.......Moving On

I'm a little down right now.

It's been a long day and my jetlag has finally caught up to me.....

The 1st of April is my set move out date. Yes after all the bitchin I made about not moving out and not paying more rent, my roommates and I sat down and discussed the issue and in the end it made more sense for me to move out. I decided not to fight with them about it and just be laid back.

I could argue that it's unfair for me to move out and all that but I don’t need the stress of that especially when I live with these girls. However, the stress of moving out and finding a new place makes me upset. I feel unsettled and wish this feel would go away.

I guess I'm being a baby and should look at this as a new beginning but its hard when the future isn’t certain.

Moving out reminds me of why I moved here in the first place......

Well I think I’ll just go to bed, I’ll probably feel better in the morning.

Dan "Dinky Derry" Baker, the Laugh Minstrel

I ride my bike to work and back home twice a day usually. I really enjoy riding my bike! I love going through red lights and weaving in-between cars, besides the health benefits I just find it exciting! I ride even when it’s -30! Seriously! I wear ski goggles on those mornings. Ha-ha but ya ever since I moved to Toronto I've always used my bike because in most cases I find it faster then TTC. Oh man I FUCKING HATE the TTC! Some people might think I'm crazy for riding my bike in the winter and ya I have wiped out a few times (once I fell off my bike in front of a street car, that was scary)but to be honest I hate stopping, I just want to keep going! There’s nothing worse then when you’re in a rush and you have to use TTC! There's always traffic, someone too lazy to walk a block from the subway station, some old lady that takes years to step up on the bus, the driver decided to stop and get a fuckin coffee, or when you get on a street car (this really pisses me off) and it only goes so far, making you get off and wait for another car. I don’t know I'm just really impatient I guess so I'll stick to my bike and continue running reds and weaving in and out of traffic.

Ok so I want to talk about airport security and just flying in general! If you haven’t been to the airport in some time then trust me your in for a treat as airport security is a fuckin joke!

First off, everyone is a criminal or at least that's how they make you feel when you begin going through security! NOW! I know they are doing it for my safety and blah blah blah but fuck that. They don’t give a shit about your safety!

Secondly, do you ever notice that when there is a terrorist act on a plane, like say for instance that guy that brought a shoe bomb onto the plane! The security changes??? After that they started checking everyone shoes! The most recent act of terrorism is someone that made a bomb out of some liquids they brought on to the plane! So now you’re only allowed to bring a few items on the plane that doesn’t exceed 100 ml?? Actually right when that happened you weren’t allowed to bring on anything that was a liquid, gel, or cream! Because you never know, that lip-gloss could be the next act of terrorism! So what happens next!!! When someone shoves gun powder up their ass and uses it as a bomb while in the bathroom of the plane? Is everyone flying now going to get their anal probed? Where’s the consistency?

Finally, if your going to fly prepare yourself for a boring, shity journy.The food is garbage and always has been (you think by this day and age they could feed you decent food). The movies are always boring and old and if you want to listen to them you have to buy these special headsets! As if the flight didn’t cost enough, now I can’t even listen to the shity movie they are showing. Oh and make sure you only bring on 1 carry on because I was told that my pillow was considered a second item of luggage? WTF?

Flying....it’s not what it use to be.

Well tonight’s the big night for me and my roommates! We all have to sit down and discuss what going to happen with the spare room we have. If you don’t know already this one roommate want me to pay 170 more on my rent to help cover for the missing person or I have to move out! Personally I don’t give a fuck! I'm not moving out and I'm not paying more rent! But we'll see I'm not that pleased with where I lived so depending on how this meeting goes I might just say fuck it, I’m moving out April 1st

Oh and if you want to find out your clown name like mine above then go to http://iam.bmezine.com/clown.exe and type in your first and last name!

Bored.....Joke Time

Well I'm bored, been an uneventful day! I think people think that since I'm in England (London) that I'm going sight seeing and all that but really I'm just spending time with my Dad. I've seen all the sights and all that you experience when you think of England so really I dont give a shit when it comes to all that but I have taken a few photos just for memory sake!

Well I was given a magazine today for giving some money to a charity, I'm such a good person. Anyway, the mag was funny and because its a boring night I thought i'd share a few jokes with you.

For The Ladies:

Q: What do a bank and men have in common?
A" They both loose interest after withdrawal!

Q: Why are men like trains?
A: They always stop before you get off!

Q: What's the difference between a new husband and a new dog?
A; After a year, the dog is still pleased to see you!

For The Lads:

Q: What do women and condoms have in common?
A: They both spend more time in your wallet than on your dick!

Q: How can you tell if your wife is dead?
A: The sex is the same, but the dishes pile up!

Q: What is the difference between Michael Jackson and a plastic bag?
A: Ones white, plastic and dangerous to children and the other is a plastic bag! (for everyone)

I though this was cool!

Oh and Ana Nicole Smith Died?!?!? Found dead in a hotel room! Drug overdose is my guess? Well thats one less gold digger in the world. I'm sure she'll be remembered for all the right reasons.

Wanted: Digital Camera!

I've decided that if you do write a blog and you write regularly then a digital camera is a must! I mean it make makes reading about my boring life slightly less....boring. I would love to have posted some pictures of when I went to Ministry of Sound or last night when I went to see an International Football (soccer) game between Brazil and Portugal. I took some photos with a disposable camera so I'll have to post those soon when I get them scanned but for now I'll have to settle with pictures off the internet!

Anyway, watching Brazil play Portugal play last night was amazing! It’s everything you think about when you think of Brazilian "FUTBOL". Shots from far out, plenty of skill/ tricks on the ball, clever passing from one player to another...OH and of course the fans are brilliant all 60,00 of them (well I'm sure some were Portugal fans)! The drums they bang on never stop, full of chanting, happiness and harsh words when one of their players get fouled! There were also some great players playing for Brazil (Adriano, Kaka, Gilberto, and Fred to name a few) but unfortunately I didn’t get to see Ronadihno play, I don’t think he even got called up to play seeing how it was only a friendly game! OH and for any Portuguese fans I got to see Cristiano Ronaldo play! He’s a wonderful player to watch, with his quick feet and speed he can get by any player but he's also young, cocky, and a big fuckin cheat. I hate him with a passion but you can’t deny he's a special player.

The funny thing is Portugal won 2-0! ???? Go figure??! Oh well I didn’t get to see Brazil score even though they had plenty of chances! But how many people can say they have seen Brazil play live?? My Dad can’t even say this and he has loved and lived Football for a very long time.

One of my goals this year was to do and see things that not everyone gets to do! Even though I'm spending a lot of money of certain trips months down the road I wont be thinking about the money I spent I'll be thinking about the memories. So far this year I’ve been to Vermont, England, NYC Maybe, and I also plan to go to California in April to see a a very big 3 day concert but that’s yet to be planned.